New Job

I started a job today, friends! I was so intimidated...still a little that way. I haven't worked for about 13 years, since I was pregnant with our first son. But, finances necessitated it, so here I go! Actually, a man we know at our church approached my husband a couple of weeks ago, and asked if my husband thought I'd be interested in working for him? His oldest daughter had been helping at his office, but is off to college. I was interested, and met with him last week. Today is my first day, and it went fairly well, all things considered. I'm feeling a bit of brain overload, but other than that, I'm doing alright!

Isaiah and His Baby Sister!

New Babies in the Family

Our newest additions were born on Sunday and Monday. So, blogging friends, I'm proud to introduce our new great-niece, miss Elyssa...and our new nephew, mister Micah! Aren't they adorable??? (Can you tell I'm excited and proud!?)








<--This is Elyssa!







<--- This is Micah!

Journeying Through the Darkness

If you stop by here occasionally to check for new posts, you have no doubt noticed the lack of new posts on my part. This is partly due to the fact that our slow Internet connection often causes too much frustration for me to sit and wait and wait and wait for it to slowly bring up the screen. It is also partly due to the fact that I am in a journey of darkness right now.

When life is rolling along smoothly...you know...the kids are mostly behaving...the bills are mostly paid and we have a little left in the bank...no one in our immediate family has any serious physical problems...my kids are doing well at school...etc. When life is like that, I'm okay. Life seems bright, and the path seems clear.

But every time I hit a bump in the road, I'm really not okay. My nerves get bad, so I can't sleep. Then my nerves are worse from lack of sleep. (Vicious cycle.) I worry, fret, stew...think of an adjective, I probably fit it. I have panic attacks. Life seems dark.

Well, life has handed me some pretty big bumps in the past few weeks. When that happens, I am so inwardly focused that many things go by the wayside. Blogging definitely isn't high on the priority list.

A couple of nights ago at a Bible study, a friend asked my husband and I about some of our past. At one point, hubby began recounting times in our lives when we had zilch...literally less than $10 in the bank, and paychecks not coming for a week or two (there was a time when both of us got our paychecks only once a month). And yet God provided. Always. It was tough, yes, but there was always provision. A check in the mail. Groceries dropped off anonymously, or simply just given by a friend. Unexpected money. Temporary jobs that got us through until permanent jobs came our way. He told our friends story after story. My faith was bolstered. For that night. But then a new day came along, and the darkness enveloped me again.

Why am I so faithless? Why do I allow the circumstances of life to so easily take my eyes off "Jesus, the Author and Perfecter" of my faith? Why do I become entangled in the snare of fear and doubt? I wish I knew the answer to that question.

I'm being ever-so transparent here. That's a difficult one for me. I had actually planned to simply post about all those great times in life when God has provided. But it all closed in on me again, and all I could see was the darkness, not the light.

So here I am, journeying forward. One tentative step at a time. Groping in the darkness. Searching for the light.

There's a song I used to sing as a child. The words bring a little comfort to my soul today.

The things that I love and hold dear to my heart

Are just borrowed they're not mine at all

Jesus only let me use them to brighten my life

So remind me, remind me, dear Lord.

Chorus: Roll back the curtain of memory now and then

Show me where you brought me from and where I could have been

Remember I'm human, and humans forget

So remind me, remind me, dear Lord

Nothing good have I done to deserve God's own Son

I'm not worthy of the scars in His hands

Yet he chose the road to Calvary to die in my stead

Why He loved me I can't understand.

(Remind Me, Dear Lord--I think the words and music are by Dottie Rambo)

Just Popping In for Quick "HI"

Would like to ask all my bloggy friends to keep us in your prayers.

THANKS!